Changes

I decided to blog again. I'm not really sure why. I think it is therapeutic for me. Lot's of changes going on in the Schrock house and I guess I am not really sure what to do with all of it. Our newest change came last week. Micheala had her 3 month diabetes/thyroid check up. Usually these are pretty good visits with the biggest challenge being what the heck is going on with her thyroid. Not this visit. Mike just started his new job and so I didn't really ask for him to come along because these visits really aren't that big of a deal. We love the doctor and things go smoothly. Besides, Mike and Micheala goof around so much at these visits and I had things I wanted to get done that night, so if I don't take him the visit will be shorter. Or so I thought. Let's just say that the visit didn't go as well as we would like and I came away feeling like the world's worst mother!! Ugh! I did text Mike half way through the appointment and told him I will never go again without him. I really needed his support. In short, Micheala's diabetes isn't under good control. Part of that is the natural process of growing and needing to change some settings on Micheala's insulin pump. Easy. The other part is that Micheala has a really poor diet. Ouch! Honestly, did I know this? Yes. Did I want to hear it? No. Did I need to? Obviously. I think of us as a typical family minus one thing, we are all extremely picky eaters. A house full of us and what you get are simple things, but because of our schedule, easy things. In short a lot of processed foods. Now, Mike and I changed our diets for the most part about a year and a half ago and we do pretty well. We do have some periods where we realize we aren't doing as well as we should and we get back on track. Unfortunately we have always let the girls kind of eat what they like, which is usually something from a box. I know, call the cops on me now. Micheala is the worst eater of all of us! She would live of off Garlic Texas Toast, bacon and rasberries if we let her. The rasberries aren't bad, but we live on a budget! Anyway, after getting punched in the stomach through words that day, it was a long ride home. Micheala knew I was upset and she was extra sweet and clingy. But, I managed to not cry (at least not in front of the doctor's or Micheala). Nope, I got a little bit pissed off! Not at anyone else, but myself! After all, I am the MOM and I am supposed to do better and I took this as a direct result of my lack of being a good mother. What really stung was the month prior at Dylanne's 9 year check up we were told she was overweight and had gained too much weight over the summer. This wasn't really the doctor's fault, the CDC set the standards (researched this) and yes according to the charts Dylanne is overweight. Not a great thing to hear, especially when your daughter is 9 and already calls herself "thick". Anyway, my hopes and dreams of the Mother of the Year Award quickly flew out the window that day and I decided to get to work. I have kind of played around with clean eating and the Paleo diet. I like to read about them, but I have never fully put them into practice. I mean after all they take a lot of planning and prep work and remember we are a busy family. (Don't you love my excuses:). The next day I took vacation day off of work. Took the gals to school and then went home and did research. Just so you know I almost research anything that comes into our lives. It's just who I am. So after finding a few recipes I thought I could handle and our picky house would eat, I went on my way to the grocery store. 2 hours in Fareway that day!!!!! I read every label and almost gave up half way through, but stuck with it. Let me just say, this isn't an easy journey we are on. I am actually writing this blog on day 7 the experience and I am still struggling through, but I am trying. What else can I do?